A couple of days ago, I dropped by SM San Lazaro after work and was walking past Toby’s when I noticed the Chuck Taylor’s poster that was hanging from its display window. I failed to take a photo of it as there were just too many people around but it reminded me of the photo I had taken with my Holga for a major project I had done during my Photography days.
Coincidentally, a friend from my previous work posted photos of her shots using a disposable camera. That warm feeling I usually get whenever I see photos taken by manual cameras with low saturation and grains came back to me and I started missing photography and it was reminded of why I left my 4-year course at UST unfinished to take up Photography in NZ (which unfortunately I didn’t finish either).
And then digital photography came into play and even at uni, they encouraged us to use a digital camera more than film cameras. That was probably also part of the reason why I didn’t finish my photography degree. I was putting away my camera the other night and noticed that my camera wasn’t functioning well and that the dial that changed the aperture/shutter speed wasn’t working. 5 years ago, I would’ve gone in a rage as my camera was like my 3rd arm and would’ve spent thousands just to get it fixed. I quietly put my camera back in my camera bag and continued watching the movie on TV. Was this a sign that my passion for photography is slowly dying? Has digital photography really turned me off taking photos?
Ironically though, I’m an avid Instagramer and post photos on Social Media, especially on Facebook, whenever I can using my iPhone 5S. It’s faster to whip out, not heavy at all and is instantly connected to the internet so that I can share my shots. I try to make sure the photo is composed properly and end up taking multiple shots of the same thing before doing some post-production work on it. I’d like to think that my photos without the filters are already well-composed, but then again, Instagram’s filters new added filters are just too good.
So for now, rather than struggling to find an answer to that question on whether my passion for photography has died on me, I’ll just continue doing what I do best: flood my friends’ timelines with my Instagram shots. Photography has played a huge part in my life that it’s not easy to just let that passion die. I know it’ll eventually come back, when I can afford it.